New poetry book pg. 3

Just to get Your attention

Just to be the one You loved

Just to be noticed by You

Just for You to acknowledge me

I am so unimportant

And You are so far above

You are everything good

I am no one and a nobody

Even just to have

The most unimportant place before You

To be able to get near You at all

To just be around You for a minute

To be the janitor of heaven

Though I know everything is clean

Even to be allowed to be far from You

And never even meet You

And have You merely allow me there

I am so unimportant

And You are so far above

You are everything good

I am no one and a nobody

In this place

The birds are singing

The sun is shining

Everything is right

He lets me love Him

Without reserve

He lets me take care of Him

He lets me care for Him

A fire of a billion flames

Burns

And I am compelled to worship

Abase myself

And make countless sacrifices for Him

For His pleasure

He alone will fulfill your wildest dreams

He will silence your pride in just one glance

I saw Him turn His head and stare in my eyes

He is a burning love, but I had to look away

Too holy for me to stare back

My proper place is bowed on the floor

I take care of Him

By kneeling on the ground

And giving Him the glory in this terrible place

He alone will fulfill your wildest dreams

He is my obssession I chase down, I have to have Him

My muse I obsessively love and pursue,

With great fiery passion

He is the prize of life

He is the One I write about

He is the One I think about

I dreamily and in awe dream of the constant beauty

Of the works of His hands

The sunshine filled blue sky, the trees of lush green beauty

That sin

To You, it's like

A man and woman in love

The woman is absolutely very deeply in love

And the man

Keeps looking at this other woman

Like he wants to sleep with her

In front of his wife

And he does it

All the time

It's on his mind constantly

This woman

And he goes and sleeps with her

15 times a day

Every day

The wife at this point

Is of course

Out of control upset

Jealous

Angry

On a very high level

Tempestuously jealous 

The Carpenter

He comes home every evening alone

To a clean house

I prayed over it

As I washed and cleaned it

I think so much of Him

I'm glad He let me

Clean His home

Even if He was there

Every little piece and part and place

Everything

I think so much of Him

I'll clean even better next time

If He helps me and explains

Better instructions

I'm not worthy

To be His janitor

I am so glad

He let me be

Simply His janitor

My face lays peacefully in the dirty dirt

Softly worshipping the Beautiful Forever Lord Jesus Christ

My face bows face down completely in the dirt,

Dirt in my mouth, I tasted it, I ate it,

I threw it all in my hair,

And left it that way for several days,

3 1/2 days 

Crying bitterly at the sight of my sin

I can't stop crying

I hate myself for what I did to You

Was this the wine You tasted on the cross

Was this the wine they offered You

A cup of disrespectful murder to God Himself

And the One who loved with His life, His blood

The dirty dirt laid all over You

The dirty dirt I forever

Bow my face in

There's mud in my mouth

Every piece of dirt is every single sin

I fed Him, inside His own mouth

On the cross

He tasted my sin, the Holy, Pure, Innocent Lord God Jesus Christ

Tasted the blows of hatred and how much I really didn't care

Tears falling down His dying face

He sits high and lofty on His throne above us

With His fiery, majestic gaze

The saints send up prayers

He moves when He chooses to

His saints, He has molded their hearts

To be quietly submissive servants

Fearfully filling their prayers with praise

While in their kneeled humbled position

Before His throne asking only for His will

Asking Him to do the godly work He desires

Of the Holy Bible

Every time a prayer is answered

He is glorified greatly

He alone can do this

We are the fearful servants

He is the great King

And we all love Him

We all adore Him

He is the Most Beautiful

He is Perfect and Matchless in Beauty

Everything He touches

Is a living piece of art

Everything He heals and changes

A disarming reflection of His heart

We bow to Him alone

We obey His every command

We praise Him every day

We worship His perfect way

We glorify Him

All day and all night

The Great King Jesus

In His unlimited power and might

But to catch Your Holy eye

But to cause You to turn Your head

The blessing I chase after

Great signs of love for You

To You, to You

To You alone

To You alone

To You alone

You are the King

You wear the crown

A sight I love

A sight I adore 

To You alone I bow down

Please allow me to serve You

And serve so well

Your servant forever

You are God alone forever

All of Your enemies are mine

Anyone a traitor to You

I despise all sin

Anything that displeases You

You are the King

You wear the crown

A sight I love

A sight I adore,

To You alone I bow down

When He was here

He let Himself be dishonored

He was dishonored

When He, King Lord Jesus

Was here Himself, Love and Perfect Good, Precious Walking with us God

He was dishonored

That was the purpose of His entire life

Sadness, rejection, complete rejection and hatred

You, Lord God Most High

Sitting on Your righteous throne

Your righteous throne

That reigns forever

Glorified forever

You, the Holy King

You gave Your Son

You gave the Best You had

The Most Precious and Priceless Gift that exists

Your Son humbled Himself and gave His life

For us, Your lowly servants

When He was here He was rejected

And is still deeply rejected by many

And to His children He faithfully forgives

Forgives grave wrongs against Him

You, Lord Most High

Your Holy Son, stepped off

His righteous throne

And came to this terrible sinful place

To die for a people so wicked

Who crucified Him themselves, still

You gave Your Son

Open Your eyes

It's done, it's through

It's over, You're okay now

I love You

I love You dearly

How dearly I love You

The shame is gone

Forget the rejection

Listen to me sing

Forget

I'm here

And I love You

Who would reject You

You are worth so much more

Than all the silver and gold

You could create

I love You

I love You

No one else is

Allowed or

Deserves to be here