new poetry book Pg. 4

Jesus so beautifully

There's a tree in their yard

He sits out in the cold

Wanting in, waiting for them

They won't invite Him in

They leave Him out there

Because they all think

They're too good for Him

He shivers in the cold

Waiting for them

They leave Him out there

I'll go there and wait too

I will not leave His side

I will do all He asks

Everything He tells me to

To bring them to Him

I will pray out in the cold for hours

I will bend my knee in worship to the Lord

And tenderly praise Him for saving me

And do all He asks

As a sweet sacrifice to Him

To bring others to Him

Jesus, I will

Shiver in the cold with You

I love You

Very much, very deeply

And forever

If You wanted

Forever

With You 

Every time

She sins

It puts another stripe in my back

Here I collect all her sins in a single thought of mine

My personal feelings about her

About all her sins

Deep in My heart,

As I suffer

I see she doesn't care

To seek Me

To be perfect

She doesn't love

That I wanted her every honor,

She proves it by continuing to sin.

She is off gathering idols

Of maggots

She would rather eat maggots

Than love Me

So deeply and so dearly

Like I only want

Perfection

She doesn't care or consider

The next stripe on My back

She loves crowning Me with thorns

She has rejected Me

Over and over again

She doesn't care

To suffer

Like I did

And not sin

She loves herself

Not Me

Every time that whip

Tears into My back

My sorrow grows deeper

And deeper

I consider the sin

And inner thoughts

Of her as she relished

Her sin

And not My deep love

And suffering

And choosing to suffer always

Instead

I consider her constant rejection.

I consider her hatred.

I've been threatened many times 

I've been threatened with being framed

I have been intimidated and extremely bullied

I have been abused

I have been rejected

I've been considered as trash

For following the Lord, for doing what's right

For sharing the truth with others

For doing what's right

And I will do it til the day I die

I will do it til the day I die

I'll do it til the day I die

You are my Friend

I lay down my life for You

And Your friends

You are altogether worthy

You always forever will so be

I love You so, Lord Jesus Christ

Be glorified in me

Let me recount every word

In Your precious Holy Word

Over and over, every day

And do all it says

What a sweetheart

A sweetheart forever

My heart adores forever

Sweet Lord Jesus, His heart forever

So innocent Lord, so innocent You are

Your heart so deep, so many things You require

But You are worth way more than You have asked me to give

Even the very breath that causes me to live

You are forever so holy,

Make my heart be Yours alone,

May You be greatly glorified on that Day

You know how much You're worth

That's why

Your standards are so high

Please just help me

Do all Your will

So I can bless You forever

I must be with You

And know You were blessed

By me

I can hear the happy birds chirping

The day life went on

The morning after

You died

Love more powerful

Than a trillion times as much

As romantic love

Is with You

Your love is infinitely powerful

People who suffered for You

Will refeel with deep adoration

How they dearly loved the Lord

They will shed tears together

In adoration and worship

At how deserving He is

You taught me what love is

You've been so patient, kind and good

With me for such a long time

Every time I die

Lord

Everytime I die

I lay it so gladly

Ever so gladly

At Your feet

King Lord Jesus

I hurt so bad

Now I don't

In pain I die

But don't even feel it

Because I am 

So overcome with Love

I don't feel the pain

I don't care about the pain

I love You so much

I don't care

It's forgotten so easily

I am full of love

I am full of Love for You

Overcome, everything in me

With love for You.

I am free

Inside this prison of beauty

That I never

Want to be let out of

Every wrinkle on Your hands

Every hair on Your head

Every part of Your beautiful face

I treasure

I adore

I long to love

To bring so much love

So precious to me

Everything about You

My deepest thoughts

My deepest desires

Aflame with Love

Overwhelming Love

You are the Loveliest

Bottomless Sea of Beauty

Of utter beauty

And worthiness

You are better, way better

Than anyone could dream

Of coming up with

Every precious hair on Your head

Is numbered

Perpetually in my heart

I love every single one

I want to watch over

Every single one

Every single one

Is the most important thing

In my life

Everything

You make everything beautiful

You are so beautiful

Very, very beautiful

Only beautiful

Eternally only beautiful

Only Beautiful, Only Beautiful

Only Beauty in You

Only Beautiful

Your lovely face

So dear, so beautiful

You alone are Beautiful

Only Beautiful

You are a dream

I behold

The loveliest dream

I can't hate anyone

I used to hate everyone

You loved me

Until I could

Love others.

They are all human beings

With feelings, pain, desires

They all have a gift

To bless others with

You taught me that

You are so good

I was the

Most evil

Most cold person

And now I'm warm

Only because of You

You are so good

Thank You Lord

No one deserves hatred

Everyone always treated me with hatred

But You didn't.

You make such

Deep dark sadness in the night

Like the most joyful desirable happiness 

The blinding light of day

Oh dearest depression, Whom I love

Years of deep depression

Intense rejected sadness and humiliation

My Love, my dear Love, no one else will ever do but You

My Love, my Lord, my God alone, Lord Jesus Christ

Your sweet face

Chasing me down

Deep loyalty in the depths of pain

Shall I die again

Or eternally

It shall be Yours

It shall be Yours

I see the light

Reflecting so lovely

Off all the green leaves

Of the trees at the light of day

I live next to Your tree

Forever

Light and life forever in death, my Everything

Miles of beauty

Miles and miles of love

This dreadfully lovely path

This difficult and weary road

Oh what will I do?

What am I

Willing to go through for You?

King of Love

You require

You desire

Everything

And my blood

I'll do Your will

Even in torture

I will love You Lord

With all my heart

All my soul

And my strength

Everything is Yours

More than Yours

Oh King

I gaze deeply into the future

I will do anything to gain

You, King of Love

I gaze deeply into the future

You have what I desire,

My Pearl of great, great price

My desperately desired Treasure,

Value impossible to measure or describe

Eternally possessive,

Agressively jealous,

That You are

Deeply and deservingly glorified

Glorified the way You deserve.

You gave Your life for me

You're my lovely Muse forever

So unselfish eternally

So lovely, so utterly lovely

Forever

Your sweet face

And letting go of everything

I could have in this world

That's everything to me

My heart full of

The vehement flame

The flame of flames

The burning flame

The vehement flame

I go elsewhere never again

So drawn to stare at You

Your utterly disarming beauty

The flames pile upon flames

Upon my heart

Leaving me with one desire

One desire only

No tears of sadness

Falling down Your face

Only tears of precious gladness

Only happiness

The kind of tears You deserve

The tears You treasure

May I always move

Your heart

To happiness

May I always win Your heart

In everything I do

Everything

Everything I do

My dear Everything

You and You alone

My dear Everything

Forever

Eternally and forever

You define beauty

You gave Your life for me

You are Perfect

And Perfection forever

I bow to You forever

My Lovely Muse forever