For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved. He who believes in Him is not condemned; but he who does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.
Are that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. For the Scripture says, "Whoever believes on Him will not be put to shame." For there is no distinction between Jew and Greek, for the same Lord over all is rich to all who call upon Him. For whoever calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved.
But to him who does not work but believes on Him who justifies the ungodly, his faith is accounted for righteousness (God does all the work of salvation for you, just believe and ask).
But Jesus looked at them and said to them, "With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."
Ephesians 3:20 - Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us,
‘Ah, Lord God! It is you who have made the heavens and the earth by your great power and by your outstretched arm! Nothing is too hard for you.
John 14:15 - If you love Me, keep My commandments. John 14:21 - He who has My commandments and keeps them, it is he who loves Me.
Job 1:1; the book of Daniel, Noah, Ezekiel 14:12- 20
Luke 1:5-6 - There was in the days of Herod, the king of Judea, a certain priest named Zacharias, of the division of Abijah. His wife was of the daughters of Aaron, and her name was Elizabeth. And they were both righteous before God, walking in all the commandments and ordinances of the Lord blameless.
You can't blamelessly follow God yourself, in your own strength. You must ask God to teach you how to do this. And if you believe He can cause you to do this, to obey Him blamelessly, and you trust Him to, then you will. You need to remember that you cannot do this yourself, only He can. He has to heal you from all lies of the enemy, heal your heart from all brokenheartedness and unforgiveness, and give you the proper fear of God.
There are so many false teachers out there right now. Almost everyone on YouTube, Facebook, many different places, and many "churches" are all false. The Bible says of God Himself though, in 1 John 2:26 - These things I have written to you concerning those who try to deceive you. 27 But the anointing which you have received from Him abides in you, and you do not need that anyone teach you; but as the same anointing teaches you concerning all things, and is true, and is not a lie, and just as it has taught you, you will abide in Him (the Holy Spirit). What this Scripture means is that God Himself is your teacher, and you don't need anyone else to teach you. Be careful who you listen to, many are false these days, and just want your money, and to control you in a way that will cause you to end up in hell (on purpose they do this), and they want you to worship them. God is your authority, check everything you are taught to see if it is in the Bible, and what God Himself says about it. Always do this!
It is so true that we cannot use the grace of God as a license to sin. But you need to know how warm, loving and kind God is in order to want to read His Word, and accept that He is a very loving, compassionate, and not harsh Father. Sometimes, when you have been treated wrong, it can be a longer road to total deliverance. God is so compassionate, please don't give up. Learn to see Him right, and love Him as He really is, and you will want to do everything He says. We do need to fear God the right way to follow Him, but learn from Him to fear Him the right way. He loves you dearly and doesn't want you to be afraid of Him in a way that you are afraid of Him the same way you were afraid of people who abused you. He wants you to fear Him like a child who fears the perfect, loving parent's every command. Just understand, God does understand you, and is willing to listen to anything you have to say. When you become born-again, you don't want to sin. And you shouldn't use grace as a license to sin. But God knows your view of Him is messed up, so ask Him to explain everything to you, and learn how to love Him and others from Him.