New poetry book page 1
14 Years
Pain and suffering
Years of service
To gain the One I love
So happy, the years were nothing
To give my Precious One
Hard to get
So fair in beauty
A deep painting
Way deeper than paint on a surface, eternally deeper
Whose beauty is neverending and infinite
I had to prove I was worthy
He doesn't want it to be easy
His heart so innocent and full of righteous desire
14 years
Yet the pain in those years
He is worthy of far more though
But I don't deserve to suffer for millions of years
For Him
Therefore, I will give Him what He's asked
14 years
And fulfill His orders eternally
Happily, willingly, joyfully, eternally
Everything He deserves
He is so good and deserving
The eternal smile on the face of such a One alone
The reason I do anything
My love,
My service, I bring to You
My obedience,
My bowing my knee at Your name
I bring to You
I bow to You eternally and forever
500 Billion Years
Once I die
And I am judged
And I'm in heaven forever
I deserve to wait
Even 500 billion more years
Before I ever
Even see Your face
You are
So worthy
Of such a thing
So worthy
Of such honor
And You deserve far more
Than me to wait
Another 500 billion years
You deserve so much more than that
You deserve so many things
I'm unable to give
I don't deserve
To be with You in eternity
Please help me glorify You
All day long
So You are glorified greatly
On Your Day
Please help me do
All You wanted
Distracted
Beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful
So, oh, so beautiful
So lovely, I long to gaze at nothing else
I long to be with no one else
I long to think of nothing else and no one else
But You
Forever
So lovely, so beautiful, and so different
From everyone else
The dream of my life
When I think of You
I feel like I am floating on a cloud
Where only soft loving, protecting light is with me forever
Someone who will never hurt me
Someone who loves me forever and
Will never let me down
I trust You
And I long to bless You
I long to be with You all day
I long to be with You alone
I long to be with You alone all day
During my 10 Trillion Years of Waiting
10 trillion years
Of extra waiting
This is what I have asked for
10 trillion more years
After getting to heaven
To wait
To actually see Your face
During that time
Will You let me
Die for You
In other worlds
At least
50 billion
More times
Even then,
That is not yet a fitting enough sacrifice
For You
Infinite deaths will never begin to be
Please
You must give me this
You deserve it
And I don't know what else to say
That would be right
And 50 billion more lifetimes
Of loving others,
Serving others
Doing Your will
Suffering for You
Saying no to many things again
To follow You
This is what You deserve
Fair One My Desire
You are forever my only Muse
To behold Your face, the face of Love
Is the only thing I want to do
You're the only reason
I ever wanted to sing a song
You really could only ever be
The reason why
You make hatred love
You make hatred lovely
You are Love
You are altogether lovely forever
Oh Fair One
You are my Desire
My only Desire
Oh, how I long for You
How I long for You
Falling at Your Feet
I'm one of those ones
Who falls at Your feet
Doing anything to impress You
To get Your attention
Falling at Your feet
A billion times
Falling all over myself
Trying to get with You
Yet You are so gracious
You let me in
To see the loveliest thing
Your face, Your heart
No one else on this earth will do
None of them could ever hope to be You
Could ever, could ever
Hope to be You
Falling at Your feet
Forever
The only one I chase
I run so hard after You
He Is So Out Of My League
The greatest of loves
Have you ever seen the Lord's face
He has made everything that is so lovely and beautiful
You can see His face in the disarmingly lovely red rose
So desirable and to be pursued
To be pursued with such driven desperation
When He was here
His face was not comely
But He would have been
The most attractive man
A girl could have ever wanted
His face was most definitely not a problem
He had all men beaten
In desirableness,
But He is out of my league
So far is He so out of all our league
He is so hidden
He let me find Him
This utterly desirable person
He is Perfect
I bow at His feet
I worship Him
But I didn't even deserve His blood
His death
For my vile sin
What am I supposed to do
Make sure I do all He says
All the time
In very tender observation
Of His law
He is completely out of my league
He is so high
His highness is eternal
And infinitely immeasurable
I didn't deserve His blood
Or His death
The most perfect person
Didn't either
Very much so
He will always
Far more than words
Could ever say
Be out of my league
I'm staying single
To serve Him better
To glorify Him more
I know I'll never have a chance
But I'm still staying single
Heaven
Heaven
Is just where You are
And nothing evil is there
So You don't get Your feelings hurt
So You are blessed
So You are pleased
Completely
Forever
I just want to be around You
That's enough for me
I'm going through everything I need to
To be with You
Heaven is just where You are
And You have my heart
Forever You always will
You make this terrible place heaven
For me
To me
Heaven is when You are so happy
Please let it always be so
Honor the Lord
The person
Who honors the Lord the most
Will be sitting the furthest away from Him
At the wedding supper
Is the janitor
Of heaven
Will go the extra mile every time
In everything
Even if it tears them apart inside
Causes them harm
Loneliness, brokenheartedness
Everything
Lose everything
Everything you can lose
If Only
If only I could just be
A piece of fruit you happened to eat
And never think about again
I don't even deserve to be that
But I know I am
So much more to You than that
And that's why You deserve that kind of awe
Just a piece of fruit
Just something
That happened
To even
Touch Your sweet hand
Only to be forgotten
Even of that I will never be worthy
But I would treasure it eternally
He ate the apple
And threw away the core
I could only hope to be that core
But to Him I'm so much more
He has my heart
Such Love
Has my heart
My heart forever
If You Love Someone
If you love someone
You care about them
I want to hold You in my arms forever
Comfort You forever
Care so dearly for You
The way You have cared so dearly for me
There is nothing else that moves my heart like You
There is nothing I will ever see so beautiful as You
There is no one else I could ever love the way I love You
Because of the way You have loved me
I have dreamt of You my whole life
Your love has covered me completely
All obedience performed with passionate absolutely unhesitant swift response
Out of love
Out of deep love
Out of powerful love
It's all I can do
It's all I think about
All I can think about
Only You
Just You
Always You
I'm Your servant forever
I so happily do all You say
What do You want
What did You want me to do
Bow to Your every command
It's how I take care of You
Every sacrificial moment
Thinking of You and not myself
In everything I do
Your breathtaking death
Deserves such respect
Complete solemn deep respect
Forever